Tomorrow is the official beta day for me. I had planned not to go but my husband asked about it today and I did not have the heart to tell him that I tested and it was negative. Yesterday was so hard for me but I got through it...barely. I wanted to wish him a Happy Father's Day but could not do it, so...
My first Beta I let them give him the results. When he called I could feel the heartbreak in his voice. The second one I got, and I hated that call....Unfortunately your beta was negative, stop taking the prometrium and wait for cycle day 1 to call your nurse. Ugghhh. I took it like a bullet. I dread the call tomorrow and will just let it go to voicemail and retrieve it later on. No one needs to have their feelings hurt with bad news.
I visited my baby forum to find 2 more BFPs. That is 12 for June. Now why the hell couldn't I be one of those 12. FUCK!!!!!
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Wishing you strength and peace for tomorrow. BFNs just suck all the way around, especially when there are BFPs all around you - and feels so horrendously unfair! So very frustrating and difficult to take. I'm so sorry. Wishing you much better to come and very soon.
I am beginning to like you..for starters, you punctuated your post with a FUCK towards the end!!!AAAH, yes, we have something in common already. I'm gonna tag you immediately!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)
I'm sorry, dearie..my forum had so many BFPs this month as month as well..but i am very happy for them..cuz they have been amazing to me..
*hugs*
Sending you lots of strength today. BFN's are hard enough, but I think even worse on medical intervention cycles. More hope = more disappointment when it doesn't work. Huge (hugs).
I feel you on those BFPs for friends. It is bittersweet - happy for them, but wondering why not me?
I hope my bruised belly didn't scare you off. I swear I didn't have bruising for my IUI/inject cycle or my first IVF. I'm thinking it is the prednisone.
How does one tag? I am not sure how that works. LOL!!!
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