Saturday, September 20, 2008

Cold Uterus

Well, I had my first appointment with a licensed acupunturist and herbalist. I decided I would take the holistic approach after all the other things I've done. I figured if I can fill my body with all types of clomid, bravelle and ovidrel, then surely I can try some traditional chinese medicine (TCM). So off I went this morning to give it a try.

Initially we spoke and she asked me some questions and looked at my tongue and did this 3 finger pulse check and told me I am very healthy! The on to my hands and feet. My hands are warm but my feet are cold. Like always. I have cold feet and its been that way for as long as I can remember. If my feet get cold NOTHING stays warm. With that she diagnosed me with cold uterus. Okay, if I had not researched a tad before the visit, I'd have said 'Cold Uterus, What the hell is that'. But I had done a little research and read up on that before. So anyway, she said that we'd do the acupunture and then she'd make me some herbs.

I undressed from the waist down and lay on the bed. It was nice and warm in the room and it was dimly lit. She cleaned the areas where she was to insert the needles. I know she put one in the very top of my head, one in the middle of my forehead, one on my right earlobe, some on each arm, a few on my abdomen and some on the leg and feet. she put some type of electromagnet spectrum thing that seemed to warm my feet. She told me to close my eyes and sleep for 30 minutes. So I lay there with needles sticking out of me and relaxed. She checked on me about 15 minutes in and then came in at the end to remove the needles. After that she gave me the bottle of herbs she'd made. I have to take 4 little spoonfuls in 1/2 cup hot water twice daily, 30 minutes after meals. I do the acupuncture 2 times per week, but I think I'll only go once because insurance does not cover it.

Anyway, this herb concoction is disgusting!!! It tastes just awful and looks like dirty, muddy water, but I suck it up and suck it down, because for the love of my bean to be, I'd do most anything!

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

What's New Pussycat...Whoawhoawhoawhao!

Nothing much going on my way. I am done with AF for this month and done with the CBE monitor and sticks. Phew! I did not POAS once this month and did not track on my calendar or anything else. I was surprised when I saw a hint of AF because I was unsure of the date. Sure took a lot of pressure off of me.

So what's next? I thought nothing, but landed on accupunture and chinese herbal medicine. Not just for infertility, but for a few other things that are bothering me. I've got ganglion cyst on my wrists and I read that accupunture may help re-direct those fluids. I have a swedish massage scheduled for october to help redirect my blood flow.

So I won't be around too much, but will update periodically as I move along to a more tranquil life, that may just bring me a baby.

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

No Shit Sherlock

He leaned over to me and said 'your period is coming; you have a zit'. I looked up and glared into his face. Why in the middle of our wonderful conversation and the splendid theatrics of the Sakura Japanese Hibachi chef's cooking presentation would he say such a thing. 'I know' I said, when what I was thinking was 'you asshole, don't you think I know I have a zit the size of Mt. Fuji on my chin. Why would I need you to point this out?'. His face distorted and I could not tell if it was from disgust of seeing my pimple or the disgust that according to HIS facts my period was coming and therefore I am not pregnant.

Who knows, who cares and in the words of my deceased mother 'No shit sherlock [I've got a pimple]'!

Monday, September 1, 2008

Desperate Times...

call for desperate measures. When my husband begins to actively research and apply what he learns, I know that we are in desperate times. Somewhere he read that when he ejaculates he should plunge in deep (ouch) and then we should stay together for a period of time before he withdraws. Now most of us women know this to be common knowlege, but when he said it to me I was stunned. Don't get me wrong he's no dummy, but as he already had kids he does not spend a lot of time wondering what's going on, not like me. He normally goes along with whatever I say or tell him and that's been the way it is. This month he decided to take it into his own hands and try this method. If I get pregnant, I'll never hear the end of it. But I am okay with that.

I decided not to focus too much on counting days and looking for signs. Normally, I fill my calendar up with my cycle count and then once I ovulate I do the DPO. But I decided not to this month. I am due next week I think and I am okay with not know the exact date. I have one pregnancy test left and so the POAS frenzy will not happen this month. Nope I am taking it one day at a time and praying positive thoughts. This is the last month for the CBE monitor, after this we are not monitoring anymore. I'll have to make my decision on IVF in the next couple of months. But I guess if I am not pregnant by then, the decision will already be made. I'll go with it.