Happy Birthday To Me!

Today is my birthday! I am 32 years young today! I certainly do not feel 32, but I am. I feel more like a young 21 year old than a true adult though.

I was thinking back over my years of TTC. I stopped BC December 2005 and we tried up to December 2006 when I found I had the massive fibroid growing in my uterus. After that was removed in 2007 we’ve been trying every month thereafter to no avail. 3 failed medicated IUI’s, 3 failed months of the CBE monitor, 4 weeks of acupuncture and herbal medicines and countless of trying it on my own. Each month I would be filled with hope and anxiety, only to have my hopes dashed and snuffed out. I would think how cool it would be to find out I was pregnant on my husband’s birthday, then when that did not work, I’d think how cool it would be to get pregnant on father’s day, then my mom’s birthday, then mother’s day and on and on and on. Each month some new expectation. We decided that the IVF was a go and I called the nurse and got my list of meds and today my husband was going to pay the deposit we are required to pay.

This year we traveled away and spent some quality time on our anniversary. I found that I was ovulating and had a fleeting thought on how nice it would be if we got pregnant on our anniversary. Just a fleeting thought because of all the disappointments. You can imagine how much we baby danced over our anniversary weekend. LOL!!! I started counting my days before Thanksgiving to see when AF would show and calculated it to be around the 30th of November. Imagine my shock when AF did not show, I figured I mis-calculated. I waited it out but still no AF. Then on Tuesday it felt as though she’d show any minute. I had small hopes of being preggers but would not allow myself to think it. By yesterday, I allowed myself to believe it could be, but all the cramping I was having made me think not. I am a 27-29 cycle day girl, not a 32 cycle day girl. I had counted and had a ball park of when I ovulate and knew just like clockwork my period came 14 days later. I picked up some tests yesterday and resisted the urge to say a word to my hubbie or sister, I resisted the urge to POAS until this morning. I got up this morning and did the test and God said ‘Happy Birthday’ and gave me my gift… it is attached below:



Imagine my shock when the second blue line immediately came up and I realized I was pregnant. I AM PREGNANT! I fell to my knees and prayed then called my husband to share the news. I said guess what we did on our anniversary weekend. He pondered and then said what. I said ‘we made a baby’. He was absolutely floored and is so overjoyed and immediately told a co-worker. My husband cannot keep a secret so I don’t know if we’ll wait 12 weeks. LOL!!!

Never did I think how great it would be to find out I am pregnant on my very own birthday. But words cannot explain how overjoyed and blessed I am. After almost 3 years of TTC and month after month of heartache…I am pregnant. All praises to God!

What's our forecast for the next year?

Well time sure does fly by when you're not looking. Its been almost a month since I stopped in to blog. It should come as no surprise that I do not have any pregnancy news to report. Last month I thought I was definitely pregnant. I shared it with my husband and sister. I'd been feeling strange and one night, while watching Desperate Housewives and folding laundry, I got so naseaus I had to jump in bed and lay down. I was feeling awful, but when my period showed up I feared I was diabetic. So off to the doctors with no hope of a positive pregnancy, then the doctor told me she bled for 3 months into her pregnancy. I had renewed spirit. Turns out I had a small case of food poisoning or a virus since my WBC were elevated. My gosh what does it take for a girl to concieve.

My anniversary passed recently and as usual my husband and I discussed our plans and goals for the next year of our marriage. His number one goal was....yes, you guessed it...starting our family. He is really pushing the IVF and I am leaning towards it myself. I 've taken just about the full year to try and concieve on my own to no avail. I guess its time for plan b. I called the fertility clinic and got my list of drugs and meds and pricing. It looks like we'll spend about $1200 for the IVF procedure, meds and co-pays. Not that bad, but much more than the $100 for the IUI's. So 2 more chances to get this thing done right or IVF here we come!