That's Strange

I expected to see peak fertility this morning but only got a high? What type of tomfoolery is this? I had a few signs of ovulation earlier, but that all came to a screeching halt. NO more heaviness and no tenderness. My beautiful EWCM seems to have disappeared. I'll do one last check tonight and then see what happens.

It just so happened that things went so well I did not get to use the preseed. Probably because I took the lead here and gave myself more time to warm up. So maybe tonight will be a preseed night. I am tired as a dog and came in and collapsed onto the bed and slept for an hour when I was only supposed to change my clothes. Oh well! My body must have needed it.

So tomorrow then, tomorrow I will see peak fertility on the monitor. If not, I'll know to just listen to my body because the monitor obviously can't keep up with whats going on.

Egg White CM

Well its CD13 and I just got high fertility on the CBE this morning. I was beginning to worry that the thing was faulty. LOL!!! Last time I got high fertility at day 10. I also did the check, you know the vaginal check for the egg white cervical mucus (EWCM) and sure enough, I got it. Now me, who always thinks I am dry as a bone down there and only see the EWCM when I wipe sometimes (it looks like mucus/snot to me). I went ahead as directed and inserted a finger and what do you know, there it was. I even did the stretch test and it did stretch. So in the words of one of my forum buddies, I am going to jump my husband tonight. I'll add a little preseed and for the next nights its on and poppin'!

On another note, I am so much better with my pregnant friends and new moms. One came in today with her baby girl and I held her and even put her to sleep. Everyone kept saying what a good mom I'll be and how I had the magic touch. I did not get offended or even cry. I just held that little baby and bounced her and rocked it. It felt so natural! I can't wait for my turn.

Am I One Of Those?

Am I becoming one of those women who will buy any new gadget that claims it will help her conceive? I’ve never been that type but I tell you it seems like all common sense is out the window when it comes to having a baby. Last month I got the CBE Monitor and was hyped up after reading all the rave reviews. I was glowing and beaming from ear to ear thinking I’d be one of the women to get pregnant the first month and have a story to tell. Well, no pregnancy the first month. So I learned about pre-seed some months ago and had read a review where a woman said it was the CBE Monitor AND the pre-seed that did it for her after 2 years of TTC and a failed IVF. Oh that sounds more like my story, so I decided to get the pre-seed this mo nth and use it. I do think I have an issue with moisture and so I bought it and will use it on a couple of high days and both my peak days to see what I get. Hoping it will give me the added moisture I needed for those spermies to get that egg!!! We shall see.

Back to the Drawing Board

Back to the drawing board. Today is CD1 for me AGAIN. Oh well I guess I had no luck with CBE Monitor last month. I will give it another try this month along with some pre-seed lubricant. For those who have not heard, pre-seed is supposed to be great for sperm survival and so I am going to use it on the days I am at peak and see what happens.

I was a tad disappointed that I could not be one of the ladies who raved about getting pregnant on the first try of the CDE monitor. I had such high hopes initially, but not so much this time around. I will keep on going natural for a bit longer though. I am just not ready for IVF.

I got an invite from some friends to join them on the Mommies Nite Out. It’ll be practice for me for when my times comes it said. Practice, that’s exactly what I need. NOT!!

Does Weight Really Matter?

Here is a link to a very informative seminar held by Shady Grove Fertility on 7/9.

http://www.visualwebcaster.com/event.asp?id=46776

There are also lots of other webinars there that you may be interested in.


On another tip I am part of a 10 pound weight loss challenge until mid-August. Here's hoping I can drop those pounds to begin, then 20 more later (as I stuff my face with shrimp fried rice, spring roll and fresh brocoli).

Coming To A Close

Well my 2ww from this natural cycle is almost over. I am at CD 24. I have not been as anxious as in the past and I attribute that to me deciding against anymore medicated cycles. When I first decided to try the CBE monitor, I was torn for a bit because I thought I was taking a step back instead of proceeding to IVF. I just did not want to go through IVF and put myself and my husband through it. For some reason I felt I could conceive on my own and I did not need any of this. I am rushing my body I thought, it will do this when it’s ready. Now, it’s not like its been less than a year of trying. We tried for a year, but found I had tubal blockage due to the fibroid. So I’ll count from once the surgery was done and I was given the okay to go for it. That would be 13 months ago now. Wow! It doesn’t seem so bad when I look at it that way. But still 13 months of hoping and praying is still a lot and 3 rounds of medicated IUIs is a lot too, especially when the doctor says there no reason why we have not been able to conceive.

As I wind down to the end of my 2ww, I feel the anxiety often associated with POAS. I know I am going to, it is just scary because then all the hopes I have will diminish and I’ll feel defeated if I get a ‘not pregnant’ once again. I often hold on to hope until the very last minute that they are saying…sorry Beta was negative and then hold on some more until AF (aunt flo) rears her ugly head. I am 9 DPO today and either I am going to hang in there until CD 1 or test and get this over with. I plan to fight to wait until CD11 but that seems so far away. I have some digital CBE pregnancy tests waiting for me. Last night I dreamt that I tested and got a smiley face, then the test begin to malfunction after I showed my husband. ‘We did it!’ I exclaimed only to have the test starting showing numbers and pound signs and just going completely haywire. Lord. I woke up this morning like ‘what the hell’? So that makes me doubly timid about testing. Oh Boy! The tests I have should say pregnant or not pregnant, so maybe I need to run and get First Response. Those show the smiley face.

I am having some twinges in my abdomen and had slight heaviness this morning. I can’t blame that on prometrium but I still refuse to read too much into it. I have been really trying to monitor myself since 6DPO because that is supposedly when baby begins to implant. No spotting, but light twinges. I should just put myself out of my misery right now and test.

I can say that I am not as emotional as in the past. Maybe I’ll sing a new tune in a day or so though. Sunday seems like a good POAS day. If it’s negative, I’ll still have time for an apple martini.

6 DPO and Still Sane!

6DPO and I think I feel those same twinges in my uterus that I used to feel with my medicated cycles. I wonder what that is. Implantation I pray, but we’ll see. One thing is for sure, its much better NOT having the prometrium tricking my body into feeling things that are not so. No sore, full breasts, no dark areolas, no cramping and dull headache and no bloating and gas. I have not had to wear a panty liner since CD3 and I can’t tell you how happy I am about that. It was imperative to do so with the prometrium vaginal suppositories.

My weekend was heavenly. The 4th was a day for all the family and a few friends, hamburgers and hotdogs off the grill and cheesecake from the Atlanta Cheesecake Factory that made me want to slap my Momma, Grandma and Great Aunt. LOL!!! But I restrained the urge and enjoyed every bite. The next day we went to the beach and played in the ocean. I have not had that much fun in years and I truly do miss the beaches. We came home for a crab fest of fresh blue crabs, shrimp, sausage, potatoes and clam fritters. YUMMY! The 8 hours of traffic home were hellish, but the time I spent with my family and friends made it all worth it.

Now to make it to 11DPO….I have the urge to POAS (pee on a stick) and I don’t think I can wait until Aunt Flo rears her ugly head to confirm or deny. This is definitely not as much of a roller coaster ride as with doing a medicated IUI (intrauterine insemination), but still, a roller coaster ride nonetheless.